sad girl becky

BYE BYE

2008-10-17T06:46:00.000-07:00

he came to my blog

and im going to follow his request
this is the last post till many years later

i love him alot
that is all i want to say

bye bye
till the next meeting

beauty oguri shun

2008-10-16T18:47:00.000-07:00

BEAUTY OGURI

he is hottttttttttttttttttttttt

that day

2008-10-16T18:23:00.000-07:00

i still cannot forget that day

when those two words came out from his mouth

and none came out from mine

yesterday was the last day i could see him

till the next meeting

sayonara

blah blah blah

2008-10-16T05:47:00.000-07:00

blah blah blah

so just came home at 7 30 larh!
damn the road got so many cars and buses

had to do 500 setting! (with the yellow medicine ball) PLUS 100 push ups while doing it!
ahhhhhhhhhhh

training did not even start and we already got tired
it kept raining
so most of the training was wasted by watching the rain go by
HAHAHA

anyway
apprantely we go a competition coming up
and it is SOON!
haha

so must jiayous!

well, also got bbq at my house on the 11 november
so yeah
im kinda corrdinating it
but it is going to be tough!
haha
luckily
got jurgen and berlin!

hmmm...
once again i spotted him
but my mouth was just SHUT
so yeah
just walk past

and now i noe 3 ppl who i would never forget cos they INSULTED MY VBALL FOR BEING LOUSY!
si yuan,
weiliang
and
KOKWENG!

they are all so evil and mean
my poor vball got feelings too
plus they also use that type of ball in their training
cos i found one in the basket!
haha
lets see what they have to say!

bleh

so

now i got no jap drama
to watch
kinda boring
still waiting for everything to upload
they are all so slow!

ok
nothing more

51 days of love
4 more days to him turning 15!
2 more days till he is gone

bye bye!

HANA YORI DANGO SEASON 2

2008-10-15T04:52:00.001-07:00

HANA YORI DANGO SEASON 2!!!!
i finally finished it!
hahahha
finished season 1 and 2!!!!!!
got the movie left for the subtiles
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cant wait!

i love oguri shun!!!
he is HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
plus matsumoto jun
but i guess oguri shun is much hotterrrrrrrrrrrr!
haha

ok
so im am still nervous(probably shocked)
from just now
just cant think straight

ok
byes!

5 more days to his bdae!
today is the day he spoke to me face to face!

birthday present

2008-10-15T00:47:00.000-07:00

hello hello

i dun noe how i am feeling now.
happy? or sad?

but i kinda feel both
XD

why?
cos i gave nelson his bdae present!
hahahahhaha

but then,
i could not open my mouth to say hi.
just two letters , h and i
one word "hi"

well,
but he said thanks to me
so i guess that was the first time he talked to me face to face
haha!

after i gave the present,
i just walked way
i was so scared
i cried.
haha
i am really annoying
but i really hope that he likes the present

ok
...

so at sch
had the damn stupid "flag" thingy
then i was called to go on stage to perform
hello!

it is only 4 hours
since i learnt the thing
so making a mistake shud not be a problem.

haha
but it was terrible.

ok
nothingmore
bye!

training PLUS BELINDA DA EVIL

2008-10-14T05:30:00.000-07:00

HELLO! HELLO!

HAHA SUPER HIGH NOW!
SO SHALL POST IN ALL CAPITAL LETTERS!

WELL,
HAD SOME STUPID FLAG DANCING THINGY FROM 1030 TO THE END OF SCHOOL
AND IT SUCKS!
OK
I HATE IT!!!!!
IT SUCKS!!!!!!!!

HAHA
BUT THE MORE SUCKY THING IS BELINDA!!!!!!!!
HAHA
NO LARH
BUT SHE IS EVILLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!
SUPERB
WELL,
COS AFTER TRAINING
THEN I "DUN WANT" TO WAIT FOR HER THEN I WALK FIRST
THEN SHE CHASE ME
THEN AT THE TRAFFIC LIGHT I SAW HER
SHE WAS GONNA JAY WALK AND I TELL YOU I TOLD HER NOT TO
BUT SHE
THINKING SHE WAS FAST
RAN ACROSS
ON HER OWN ACCOUNT
SO, SHE NEARLY GOT BANGED DOWN BY A CAR
HELLO!!
IT WAS HER OWN ACCOUNT
NOT MY FAULT!
HAHA
SHE IS PURE EVIL!
SO THEN
WENT HOME LARH

WELL,
TODAY HAD VBALL TRAINING WITHOUT COACH!
AND IT WAS WITH MR CHEN
OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT
SO FAR
HIS IMPRESSION TO ME IS SUCKY
BUT I THINK DURING ONE OF THE PRACTICES
I THINK I WAS TO TENSE UP
I REALLY WANNA "KILL" HIM
HE DRIVES ME UP THE WALL
IT IS LIKE
HE SAID, " WHEN YOU'RE GET YOUR JERSEY WITH YOUR NUMBERS I WILL CALL YOU BY NUMBER"

HELLO!
WE ARE BORN WITH NAMES
AND WE TOLD HIM ALREADY
PLUS WE TOLD HIM THAT WE HAD NICK NAMES
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
WE ARE NOT BORN WITH NUMBERS!

SO
BLAH BLAH BLAH

I MISS COACH!

THEN.....
HMMM

OGURI SHUN IS HOTTTTTTTTTT
HAHA
I MUST REMEMBER TO BRING CD 2 FOR SHIYUAN
OPPS
TODAY I LENT HER THE CDS
BUT THE SECONS DISK I FORGOT TO PUT IT BACK
HAHAH
PS PS

TMR IS A BIG DAY FOR ME
SO WISH ME LUCK!
BYE BYE THEN
XD

saw but gone

2008-10-13T01:55:00.000-07:00

ok...

my skin is super weird
but kinda funny

so....
matsumoto jun is............. HOTTTTTTTTT!
ok...
over exaggerating
well,
figaro ceng shao zong is HOTTTTTTERRRRRRR!

haha
im siao

anyway
today is monday
the countdown of 7 days
the countdown of 6 days starting 12 midnight.
so...
oh
the countdown of 4 days (i think) till i can most probably say HI
so ...
just hoping

well,
today God has really opened my eyes
to
how much i love him
to the many different sorts of chirstians
to
the friends i have

it was really scary
but he saw me through it all
and i thank him alot

well,
so far i passed all my subjects
left eng i think
but this end of year i did it qiute badly
just passing by the skin of my teeth
haha
next year must jiayou.
byes!

counting down...

past two/three days

2008-10-12T05:21:00.000-07:00

i have been watching HANA YORI DANGO like three times this week
it is just wonderful, awesome
I LOVE IT!
now im looking for season two!
haha
jiamin is so making me JEALOUS!
haha
but then i would make her jealous soon...
HAHAH
EVIL...

anyway
yesterday watched EAGLE EYE...
super nice!
but not the best
but nice
XD
then
today went to church
got INJECTION!
aiyo
another one on feburary
ok
then thats it
nothing more
tmr got sch!
yippy
but all teh results....
HISTORY SURE FAIL!

anyway
whoever is out there pray for dian rong that god will always be with her
and everyone around her too!

and....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOJAK!
may all your wishes come through and that you would be protected.

haha
what am i saying
but
still,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

ok
that should be it
this may be the last day that i can use my com
byes
forever

another bye bye session
to my:
computer
handphone
and....
FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!

okay
*cries*
bye bye

countdown of 7 more days starting 12 am(midnight)
but then the day would be extended

gonna have our first training without coach this tuesday
*cries*
everything would be different
just hope for the best

EOF RESULTS

2008-10-10T06:18:00.000-07:00

EOF RESULTS:
maths- 67/100
chin - 62/90
eng - 32/60
dnt - 31/???

smthing like that
anyway
i passed all
so my com stays with me
HAHAHA

ok
going to have HANA YORI DANGO MARATHON!
JUST LIKE JIAMIN
(:

and today had vball meeting
with everyone
tho we did not see the knew coach
i hope he can take in all our rubbish
and he is from HAI XIN!
omg
i dun wan
having a coach to coach TWO SCHOOLS!
how bout if both schs go for tournament against each other
deep shit already then

anyway
he was there
and the present was in my bag
but it remained in there
just having him around
to me,
everything felt so tense up
esp when he is going
my only focus was just to say hi to him
just a word "HI"
but somehow those words never left my mouth

well
life is like that

counting down to 9 more days starting at 12am tmr.
byes

quick post

2008-10-09T06:34:00.000-07:00

ok
so went out with nat
but ester did not come
anyway
went IMM
then walked around
from 3rd level to 1st
then walk up and down form 2nd to 1st
at least 3 times
just looking for his present and to get nat to buy smthing
anyway
damn pissed off with nat larh
she ask me help her look for clothes
i help
then she dun like
anyway
today also bought HANA YORI DANGO!
ahah
finally

but tmr i dun htink can watch
cos results are coming back and i dun think i would do well
so yeahs
bye bye my phone
bye bye my com
bye bye everyone
BYES

over at my house

2008-10-07T06:24:00.000-07:00

hey hey!

this week is freaky

so today finally finished all the exams
then was going home with iris belinda jiamin
cos taking same bus
then jiamin and i were walking to gether behind iris and bel
then talking about HANAYORI DANGO!
i want to watch!
so jiamin suggested to come to my house to watch
so
LALALALALA
shiyuan and jiamin are coming tmr!

then on the bus,
iris and belinda keep asking me to go to sentosa with them
then cos i cant go
then they said want to come to my house to play
ahha
then they came!
had lots of fun

through the videos you can see
although my brother pretending to play golf is kinda extra
but yeahs

so just bought chips and drinks for tmr

thursday i am finally going...
SHOPPING!
haha

i really miss going shopping
going to window shop cos got no money
(:
well,
gotta keep for that BIG BOMB
hahaha

12 days left
byes

videos

2008-10-06T22:11:00.000-07:00

asthama

2008-10-02T21:20:00.000-07:00

looks like my asthama is getting worse.
if it gets any worse maybe cant play vball again
well,
im not going to run until it get better

um
finished all the exams this week
now watching brown sugar macchiato
damn nice
okays byes

24 hours left

2008-09-30T23:13:00.000-07:00

24 HOURS LEFT
i just heard the most terrible news in my whole entire life.
it did not involve my studies nor my sports but it involved my life.
to me, my life had been a problem. i was given birth with a heart disfunction and i was always making my way to the hospital with my luggage a packed just in case i was admitted to hospital. now, it is nearing the edge.
i had just came back form the doctors. hot tears rolling down on my cheeks, recalling what had happened in that room. "your daughter's heart problem has been getting worse and i am afarid if she does not undergo surgery, she may only have 24 hours left to live"this was what the doctor said as he held up the x ray document.
my mother and i were in tears, and to my mother, she may lose her one and only daughter. my mother was so frightened that if this operation does not help me, i may suffer in the near future.she was also tired of running up and down form the hospital. signing the consultant fees everytime i had to go to the doctors. because of me, her money was slowly drained and had to cut down on everything- from clothes to food until one day we had to sell our house.
she told me to wait outside of the room and wanted to have a chat with the doctor. from then on, i knew that i only had 24 hours to live my life, and i got to live it to my fullest.
she did not tell me anything about her option but through her actions, she had let go of me.
she brought me to eat all my favourite food-sushi and steak. it was going to be the last meal with her. however, i can choke on food anytime because i dont have much energy to chew it properly. that day my mother was in such confusion she did not remember anything about my symptoms. while i was eating sushi, i choke on a small grain of rice. at that time, my mother panicked. she shoved water into my mouth and kept hitting me on the back. it was so painful that i wanted to cry, it was so painful to watch her see me suffering but i could not.i was ready to give up but i persisted. i did not want my mother to feel lonely and regret all the things she had not done wiht me. i had to withstand the pain and coughed really hard to push the rice out. fortunately it came out.deep down i felt like crying but instead smiled at my mother and said ," let's go to wild wild wet!" she forced a smile and took me there.
on the way there, my mother asked me," are you sure you want to go there? i mean with your current condition i am afraid that you can't swim." i knew that there was risky but i wanted to take my chances.
when we reached there, i went on the floats in the tsunami area. however, the waves were bigger than usual. my mother held me tight but a big merciless wave crashed into, splitting us apart. my mother was hysterical. she was frantically shouting out my name, screaming for help but the area was too noisy for her to be heard. this time, another wave sent my mother of her float. without thinking, i jumped off my float and tried my hardest to save her. another wave came. it came above my head and pushed me under water. i swam to the top, gasping for air. then something tight was around my feet. it was pulling me to the bottom. i was really exhausted and gave up struggling.
everything before me disappeared. suddendly, i saw this tiny light and surrounding it was darkness. i felt like i was floating and soemone was pushing me towards the light. the more i struggled to get closer to it the further it got. then in the darkness, i saw my life being flashed acroos. i saw the happy times and the sad times i had. everything went blank for a while. then, i was being blinded as everthing became very bright.
everything was unclear to me. where am i? what happened? i could not answer these questions. my vision was blurry. i lifted up my hands and looked up. everthing i saw was white. for a moment i thought i was in heaven -until...
there was a loud bang! the door swung open. i saw my mother rushing in. she was in tears. she gave me a big hug and a wet digusting kiss. "am i dead or alive?" i asked her.she smiled and screamed,"she talked! you are alright dear! you are alright!" so i went through a surgery when i was in that black dimension. "haha" i was laughing to myself. i was so relieved that i burst into tears. however i was puzzled."mom, how come i went through the surgery? i thought you did not want it?" "dear dear, after spending so much time with you, i was so afraid to lose you so i opted for surgery." she explained. the doctor came in with a smile and said that i would have to go through an examination before i could be discharged. although it was a very scary experienced, i managed to overcome it. it als o taught me that we must treasure our life because you may never know when you are going.
THE END
NOTE: THIS STORY IS FICTIONAL ALTHOUGH PARTS OF IT WERE FROM MY OWN LIFE'S EXPERIENCE.

AUTHOR'S EXPERIENCE
heart problem/asthama
food(i always loveed food)
drowning/i nearly drowned b4.

AUTHOR'S NOTE
for this compostition, i failed it by my english teacher -MS JOCELYN TAN
so i need your comments.
although some parts i edited and added
hope you enjoy
please comment kindly.

AUTHOR'S WISH
i hope that through this story those who are experiencing life problems will be convinced to not waste their life and to treasure it.

SOURCE
ONE LITRE OF TEARS influenced me to write this story. btw, it is a must watch drama.

WARNING
THIS STORY IS FICTIONAL!
~END~

stand up!

2008-09-30T05:09:00.000-07:00

see you

2008-09-30T04:49:00.000-07:00

see you mr koh
its not a good bye
we will meet soon
thats a promise
"yaksuok"

mr koh is going for his first day in his new job on thursday
i will wish him all the best(:

today had maths paper
so far finished eng and sci too
so kinda relaxed
tmr going to finish up my art
im like so far behind
JIAMIN! LOVE YOU ART!(:
haha
so after the giving of presents to mr koh
then i went home
saw kokweng at the bus stop.
talked to him
haha
kinda weird
cos i always think the bboys are kinda scary
well,
never talked to a guy that is way older than me
haha
no offence
but 2yrs is already a big diff
not to mention ppl who are in poly
and i actually talk to them
its all a mystery

continuing...
had tuition just now
i was like so extra
in the middle of all the p sixes
haha
i remembered the time when i was once in their position
lots of test papers
haha

and...
kojak,
it has been i long time i have spoken to you
and i hope you are doing fine but someday talk to your friends.
you should noe what i mean

so i heard that mavis and kojak STEAD!
it was super shocking
haha
you two must last yeahs(:

ok that is it
next post will be the pictures of the drama i just finished today..
STAND UP!

sayonara

photo blogging

2008-09-26T06:40:00.000-07:00

this was yesterday's

ENGLISH ORAL!

2008-09-24T04:25:00.000-07:00

I SURE FAIL
OK NOTHING MORE TO TALK ABOUT
SAW HIM TODAY BTW
BYES
!

urticaria

2008-09-23T05:06:00.000-07:00

apparently i got this disease before
have been reading through the lawyer's things

Urticaria (or hives) is a skin condition, commonly caused by an allergic reaction, that is characterized by raised red skin wheals (welts).[1] It is also known as skin-disease-itis or uredo.[citation needed

see the pics
they are digusting

photo blogging XD

2008-09-23T04:59:00.000-07:00

today and today alone

2008-09-22T05:28:00.000-07:00

(:

HE MOVED CLASSROOM!
and it is much nearer now
however...

there is this cold wall now.
i can literally feel it
i dun dare walk on that ground
but on that day
i am going to drill a hole big enough for me to go through
wish me luck

so today
had pe in the morning
played captain ball
then played against 1A
haha
super fun lorh
first round
i like no every enthu
then suddendly i wanted to jump really really high
after seeing that thomas play against berlin's group
it made me want to jump higher than him
haha
so go tthe ball a few times
quite easy
then shiyuan ( i think) told me that they never take the ball
so i give them
i am so sorry
did not know
and esp to belinda
cos she blocking the other side

anyway
when berlin's group played
damn funny
cos there was once melissa also know as aide
she became goal keep
haha
short one how can
but she like surprised all of us
actually it is expectedXD
she managed to catch the ball lorh
haha
(:
GO MELISSA!
then berlin keep tackling thomas
damn funny
then the rest also damn pro
haha
XD
so it was a fun pe

had history
boring...
oh btw,
thanks to that 1E ms koh bloody hell larh
go make dian tian cry
she said to diantian her hair not nice
she better keep her mouth to herself
no like she very pretty
then during assembley(afternoon) she said sorry then give her lollipop
HELLO!
SORRY NOT ENOUGH LEH!
anyway
diantian cut her hair damn nice kay!
[but diantian it would curl up one so dun worry yeahs! XD]

then had recess
saw nelson they all play captain ball
haha
then went to see michelle play also
got dixon, siyuan, xinzhi(if im not wrongXD im trying to recognise)
so yarh
they play super fun XD
HAHAH
but today did not play vball ):
busy eating popcorn!
haha
tmr going to steal dianrong and jiamin's food!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAH
I LOVE YOU GUYS! <3
but i should take it cos i gave them my popcorn
hahah
i so mean
just joking

anyway
today rushed home
tmr got oral
then i dun noe if got the lit thingy
whatever

anyway
my mom is crazy
THE WHOLE BLOODY DAY SHE KEEP SCREAMING AT ME
AND...
I GOT NO MORE ENG TUITION
TODAY WAS THE LAST LESSON!!!!
byes

busy sunday

2008-09-21T04:12:00.000-07:00

haha
have been busy with the house work
no maid
so gotta do everything
but it is kinda fun

so today
woke up
then blah blah blah
the usual
then i went to church
haha
had yf
it was message and prayer
so
the main subject was camp
so people were called up to talk about their trips to yf and their experience
so people were called up
then...
ESTER WAS CALLED!
haha
but if she was called definitely thw rest of the three of us would be called up too!!
haha
then when she was done
she called up NATALIE!
ahh
left dorothy and i
then both of us say
" sabo your brother"
haha
our plan work!
so both of us werent called up
haha
so then KAIWEN...
haha
they showed the camp video then
THERE WAS MY INTERVIEW!
AHH
later i look for it show you
haha
so
they also showed it to the congregation
haha
both services
the morning and 10 30
ahh
haha
it was terrible
anyway
came home
did a bit of housework
hung up the clothes
cleaned my room
mopped the floor
yeah
then went super marketing
bought lots of things
also bought more clothes
damn nice kay
go one shirt is like both sides are like 2 different shirts
haha
damn cool
i just realised
i like over sized shirts
they are like super nice
but all of them have to go with tights
but i hate tights
so im wearing skinnys
haha
ok
now am at home
AGAIN
then cooked
then now going to eat soon
byes

mugging

2008-09-20T01:32:00.001-07:00

ok...
i am going to study for my exams
but dun know how long i can last
byes

art

2008-09-19T01:39:00.001-07:00

finally finished my first composition of my art
i coloured it
and everything
but i was rejected
so must do all over again

later got to go to tuition
byes

time goes by

2008-09-18T05:59:00.001-07:00

i was just looking through my friends blogs
from 6f '07
life has really changed
it has been so fast but i still think i am the same old me
still childish
still relies on other's too much
it is really a mystery

yesterday and today

2008-09-18T00:25:00.000-07:00

ok..
yesterday did not post
so shall post for today and yesterday
well,
yesterday
i finally told ms tan that she sucks as a teacher
kinda happy of myself
if anything must go principal office, i would go
anyway she failed my compo
damn her
it was like such a ncie story
next time if i have time then post
remind me
so today
stayed back hoping that i could see him
but i only saw him at dawson
i was suppose to go back
and i have not seen him so i thought of going round dawson once while getting a drink
then it so happened that i actually saw him
outside jayzee cafe
with his friends
but all i saw was girls around him
im mad
seeing him, i should be happy
but it felt like something stabbed me straight into my heart
i could not take it
"just look then go away"
i did but that image remained
so...

okays
i have been killing my brain cells for quite long already
byes

room to room

2008-09-16T05:23:00.000-07:00

the more i think about it
the more i feel like giving up

i am talking about persuaying the new coach to let me be in the first 6 team
persuaying mr koh was not an easy journey
rushing here and there
making sure that everything is consistent
it is sure no easy
and my hard work paid off
i managed to get into the first 6
however...
not for long
i have to go back to the basics
i have to impress the new coach now
tough luck
i just feel like quitting
but im not
i got to have resilience
XD
haha
so..
jiayous for me and everyone
well,
i was thinking
what would i do for that day
came to a conclusion
but i dont know if it would be appreciated
byes

OH!!!
GRANDMA MOVED OUT!!!!
yayness!!
but now i must shift the room
damn
so would be kinda busy
byes again

left out

2008-09-15T04:00:00.000-07:00

look like im going to be left out again
the farewell party they are going to have
i dun think i can go
why like this!
lost two things
1. THE WHITE SHIRT!!!!!
2. THE JACKET!!!!!
thanks to the tuition i could not have the jacket!
everyone else got it
why me
it would be such a simple task to just go for the trainings
thanks alot
thanks alot to my freaking mother!

i lost so many things in my sec one life
will it be the same next year?
and the year after?

bracelet

2008-09-14T05:37:00.000-07:00

I FOUND MY BRACELET!
THE ONE THAT MY FATHER GAVE ME!
just wearing it the whole day
it reminds me of the fun times we had together
me being his little princess
then suddendly i cried
i remembered that coach was leaving us
my second father
he was leaving me like how my father left me
this time
he was more heartless
he actually told me
all the promises he made with us
were all lies
they are never going to be fulfiled

wore my class tee
looking at the retard faces
hoping that it gave me encourgement
but...
the more i looked at it,
the more i saw sad faces
what am i suppose to do
cant do anything? can i?

i lost him also
every night i thought of him
maybe i went too far
and maybe he was right
i never talk to him face to face before

im at my ends
with the blow i had just gotten over
now there is another
another that is much worse
another that affected my life
"do not limit yourself"
that is all i remember
that was the first sentence that he had affected my life tremdously
and now you are telling me that it is a LIE!

coach its a lie right?

2008-09-12T21:45:00.000-07:00

i woke up
hoping that yesterday did not exsist
but then when i turned on my computer,
pops out coach
he was standing there so happy
yet he is already going
for good
i woke up hoping that it was a dream
i woke up hoping that it was a lie
and i still believe that it was a lie
coach would never abandon us
never
i believe that coach would never do this
it really felt like how my father just walked out of my life
i trusted him so much
he made us promises
i dont believe that he would break them
he thought us morals
told us stories
i really want it to be a lie
a lie that would never happen again
just this once

he told me off
and i cant do anything
it is true that he never talked to me before
i am sorry

"do not limit yourself"
is that a lie too?

i need someone to be there for me
but now,
im just silently suffering in the corner

history repeats

2008-09-12T06:41:00.000-07:00

QUEENSCUP! THE SWEET VICTORY BUT IT LEAD US INTO...tears...
with the sad news that he is going
it was mr koh's last tournament with us
that means he is going
for good
the last training he scolded us
we drove him to his grave
could we have made it a pleasent ending for him
then of all that
we all cried
esp the bboys
they sent nearly their whole entire secondary school life with him
and then he dissapears from their world
and it was my first time seeing him cry
history repeats itself
i could not comfort him
i lost again....
to top things of i made the situation worse for him
im sry

last training

2008-09-11T04:15:00.000-07:00

ok..
so today was our last training and we got scolded, BIG TIME!
mr koh was rushing us
made us move faster cos the b boys also needa train
then train train train
the b boys came but not all
esp you
so all of my confidence down the draini play terribly
but there was one match i played but i was the only girl
the rest were the b boys
so it was kinda fun
but tough
it was like also very paiseh
cos the only girl that appear from now where just join
but it was fun
made friends with siyuan and dixon.
i think
XD
anyway
both knees are busted
cant walk properly
i better put the ice b4 it gets worse
ok
i gtg
bb

ps. pray for us for our match tmr. QUEENSCUP!!!

never giving up

2008-09-10T05:44:00.000-07:00

today i failed
i did not see you
i was hoping for 5 days in a row that i could see you
my hopes went up on the first two days
but i failed today
but i am never giving up
good luck for all the sec 3 oral exams today!!!!!!
im kinda late but i hope they did well.

shunjun,andrew and diantian came over to my house
finally finished the project
kinda nice tho(:
all our efforts were paid off
now just for the marking part(:
so we had lots of fun
andrew was like dun know how to search for information
then shunjun help him
then sometimes he play the game until his face turn upside down
haha
then dian tian was copying one artefact
then i was doing the other and decorating the boards with pictures
haha
funny
then sent them home
super tired
monday had tution--- tired
tuesday had training--- super tired
today had project--- damn tired already

tmr still have to wake up at 5 to do the bedsheets!!!!!!!!!!
walao
i am bloody tired
without him, all my strength is gone
without him, all my hope dissapears.
byes

training

2008-09-09T05:22:00.000-07:00

okays...
i shall only start blogging like jiamin like when im free cos now very busy
(:
must remind me XD
well, had training today
the b boys came
he also came(:
but he left after a while but came back
with his presence, it pushed me to do better
still got one more training to show mr koh that i can be in the main 6
and that training i want to show mr koh that i can become a libero(:
haha
excited
today trained like shit
i pushed myself to strive even better
although both my knees were hurting and my ankle
it is still aching now
haha
(:
had a terrible bus ride home
anyway,
i must do well
and monday mr koh giving out the QUEST VOLLEYBALL JACKETS!!!!!
i want it
(:
haha
gotta do well
bb

tmr shun jun, andrew and dian tian coming to my house do project
GIVE ME ALL THE INFORMATION!!!!!!!!!

first day of school

2008-09-08T04:09:00.000-07:00

this is the first day of school
but it did not feel like it
it went back to the normal classes
the depressing moments are getting back to me again
glad that i could see him
on the first day of school
and that really lifted up my spirits
about more than one month to go
and the big day would come
well
ying jie's bdae is coming(:
projectXD
byes
busy
busy

school

2008-09-06T23:45:00.000-07:00

finally
half a day more
then can go back to school
just came back from lunch
still freaking hungry
sad the house got no food that can snack on
im gonna die!!!!
from hunger!
hahaha
well,
thank goodness just now buy currypuff
but can only last for a day
):
so tmr i think going to buy some more food
there is like hardly anyone that can do the house work
since the maid is gone
bored
tired
lazy
yesterday HAND WASHED my own freaking pants
i never did that b4
so whatever
so did it
then spent the whole night watching hanakimi japan
completed the whole series in just one day
haha
my record!!!
next time i try to watch within half a day
(:
anyway
tmr going to see everyone
but i think life will go back the same
so more crying
more loneniess
and blah blah blah
hahah
so whatever
homework!!!
has someone done it
!
HELP!
okays
nothing more to post
trying to look for a new drama to watch
and definitely not korean
and i watched all the japanese dramas i can watch
and all the tawinese too
help!!!!!!
someone
get more DRAMAS!!
i think the final option i am left with is
ANIME!
omg
i hate that
but im trying
maybe start off with it started with a kiss
but the anime version
um
itananana na kiss
somehting like that
ok
byes

just realised...
I DID NOT STUDY FOR CHINESE TEST!!!!!!!!!

maid

2008-09-06T00:13:00.000-07:00

ok...
now the maid is gone
and there is no one left in then house to do the house work!!!!
wtf
now,
lunch i must cook myself
sometimes dinner
then clothes cannot wear WHITE!
if not must hand wash
ahhhh
bad bad
now cant do much but house work
and still have to clean all the BATHROOM!!!!!!!!!!!
ok
i gtg
byes

sleeping

2008-09-05T10:36:00.001-07:00

IM STILL AWAKE!!!!
STILL VERY FRESH AND...
i cant say happy cos then it would be a lie

pics on the hike

2008-09-04T16:59:00.000-07:00

quickly finish and over

2008-09-04T16:47:00.001-07:00

holidays!
quickly finish and be over
i hate holidays
esp when they are long ones
it is like so boring at home
i dont plan on finishing all my homework
it is like so damn difficult
esp the history one
i keep looking over the powerpoint slides
again and again
but i still cant get the answer
i bet the rest must have found it easy
it is like after all the vball trainings
i have been slacking
i have no even touched my hmwk for chinese tuition
and it is TODAY!
omg
i should do it
but got so much memorizing to do
if it is in eng i wont mind
but it is CHINESE!!!!!
anyway
recently i keep going to that blog
every single day
dont know why
i read the post again and again
but i dont tag or comment
what am i doing
it is like a daily routine
once i turn on my computer,
i go straight to that website
forget it
i wanna watch m drama till 9
byes

blog

2008-09-03T06:00:00.000-07:00

hellos(:
ok...
changed blogskin
and i have no idea if there is a picture or not
so if it is funny
please tell me
then i will find a new skin
so far i see it as a plain simple blog(:
no done with it yet
too LAZZY TO DO
byes

yesterday n today

2008-09-02T23:20:00.000-07:00

hellos(:
yesterday did not post cos tired and lazy(:
so shall post for today and yesterday

yesterday
went for the hike
but rained
so had waled abit then went back
then did chinese test
I FAILED!
HAHA
terrible
ok
dun care le

today
vball training
very tiring
played with the 5 of them
happy
but made lots of mistakes
service improved!
i hope i can be in the main 6
ok
was going home
then i saw him
i know he saw me and i saw him
but i did not dare to say hi
i was wondering on the bus
cant we be friends
or is it that impossible
i wonder
i wonder

okays
short post
byes

training

2008-08-31T23:38:00.000-07:00

hellos(:
thanks everyone who tagged(:

today had vball training
it was kinda tiring
cos it has been a long time since i did my rounds
so ran 6 rounds for warm up
then did stretching
YING JIE! MUST GET WELL(: THEN CAN PLAY YEAHS(:
so went up to court
did warms up
then practice receiving
i love receiving(:
cos i want to be libero
and i kept a conscious watch on melissa
cos her goal is the same as mine
and i cant lose to her
(:
and i want to learn from her
cos she can receive spikes really well
then if we receive to mr koh, he would keep tossing it back to you and make sure you get out
haha
so during this practice drill,
i did stupid things
like i did a SPLIT
and i fell right on my butt
but i managed to save the ball
(:
then practice serving
walao
my upper arm serve cant get across the net
everytime i walk then i stop to serve
which is not right
but kinda difficult for me to concentrate
so i gave up
(which i totally hated myself for that)
then i changed to under arm serve
sometimes cant get over the net
im like very unconsistent
so during that practice
mr koh told me he was considering me as the second setter
i was like dont know what to say
cos i dont want to be setter
then i told him i want to become libero
then i was like knocking myself on the head saying why are you so stupid
cos if i am second setter,i can get a higher chance to be in the main six
but i was scared too
because of all the pressure berlin and dian rong gets
and i know im being a wimp
and im totally not myself
but i also think what i did was right
and im not going to regret it
i am going to work hard to become a libero.
(:
then played match
best of 5
but only played 3 cos 3:0
then during the match
fell quite a few times
i dont know why today keep falling
and i am hating myself for that
cos i want to be able to get the ball but still matain my stability
so
i guess mr koh is striking me off his list
):
so that's that
ran another 10 rounds
nearly gave up
but i pushed forward
then came home
tired like shit
tmr going for the hiking.
im gonna bring lots of food
i would die without food
and im gonna buy lollies
i dont care
(:
well well
today cant go jiamin's and yingjie's bbq
i want to go
but it is either today or tomorrow
and fitness comes first
so gotta skip the bbq
and it is all thanks to TUITION!
i am so not going to do the homework
although it is starting like in one and a halfs hour's time
i dont care
so
my life is clean and simple
(:

well, today weiliang came
and it was like damn funny
cos we are all girls
and he was blocking and then everytime he block the put his hands up in the air
like he surrending
and there was once ms heng receiving then fell in the middle
then weiliang wanted to chase the ball but then he took one step then move back
cos ms heng was there
!!!
HAHAHHAA
damn funny
well, i hope tmr we are going to have a good time(:

oh yarh.
JURGEN! YOU TOO MUST GET WELL AND PLAY IN QUEENSCUP(:

wow! just for one training and i wrote so much
HAHHA
BYES
(:

yf outing

2008-08-31T02:35:00.000-07:00

haha
went for yf outing today(:
we did not go to botanics but went to west coast instead.
we had loads of fun

we played 5 games
2 wet games
and 3 dry onces
it wasnt so much fun
cos i had to pair up with pastor razu.
and for some reason he always hold my hand
its like wtf
so bloody sickening
its like i tried to shoo him away from me
but cant cos he pastor
damnit
anyway, played then after all the games
we played with water
chasing everyone
splashing water on everyone
obviously
i was dry
and i was glad cos then dont need to change
but then natalie and ester started to chase me
ahhh
i run run run
until i bump into ezra
and he splashed me with water
somehow i slipped and fell
then natalie went behind me
then he ask me if i was ok
i was ok so i said i was fine
then he said ok then
then continued pouring water all over me
then natalie poured the whole bucket of water on top of me!
it was damn terrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha
but it was fun
(:

so went to get bubble tea then went home
(:

you know
everytime i talk to some one the conversation comes out to be an argument.
dun know why
but i hate it being like that
what is happening to me!
somehow
i changed alot as a person
my character
everything
because of the big blow because i fell in love with kojak
wtf
because of that
i lost a friend
quarreled with him making it a habit to wuarrel with almost everyone
and my personal being
why because of that my life had changed alot
ok
cant talk anymore
byes

giving up

2008-08-30T00:06:00.000-07:00

my greatest weakness is to give up
just like that
i hate ppl who give up
but i am going to be one of them
i got no more strength to continue on.
slowly, everything i have is all going to be token away from me

im giving up
truly
it was always no no no
how much more must i do?!
just abit more i keep telling myself.
but in the end i am still telling myself that
wow
that is sure long
ok
i have been happy for the past 3 days
i should continue to leave all the past behind
and live my life like those 3 days
(:
happy
must stay happy(:

teachers's day cum aces day

2008-08-28T21:02:00.000-07:00

how nice can the class room be if it is this empty(:

these were yesterday's photo
berlin and melissa and iris were like everywhere geling ppl's hair
XD

someone took this video of us while we went to dance
(:
1D VICTORY!
we were the champions of the whole sec one level
the rest of the champions were
2d and 3d
and 3d won the overall
wow!!
all D classes!!!!!!!!
loving 1D!!!

ok
nothing much
i dont think i impressed you

heys look at this one
they have an identical jersey as us!!! haha

sorry(:

out the window

2008-08-28T05:45:00.000-07:00

opps
i just threw a tennis ball out the window into my neighbour's balcony
haha
nvm

tmr got ACES DAY!
bring us to the finals!!
love our class dance
just need to touch up here and there
1D VICTORY!
must win
(:
but lose also nvm
as long as we have fun
and we are gonna get our faces painted!
hahahahahha
ok

gonna die soon
byes

DID WELL FOT MY CA!!!!!!
LOVING MYSELF
THANKS TAIJOUM
(:

later!

2008-08-28T00:22:00.000-07:00

i shall post later

XD

QUEENS CUP

2008-08-27T04:36:00.000-07:00

QUEENS CUP ALL THE WAY!
haha
i think i am wrong
and i am sorry everyone
especially the six of you
i did something really wrong
and im sorry
so, had queens cup today!
during history
kendrick, jiamin and i were counting down to 105
then jiamin and i were called by mr chong
damnit
well, forget it

so,
ate only 3 pieces of bread today for lunch
it was heavy rain
so had to rush to queensway

then at queensway the b boys played first
weiling did not play so i think he was kinda feeling frustrated
CHEER UP YEAHS!
well, their match was super exciting
we kept cheering and cheering and cheering
until no voice
THEY WON!
thanks to shiyuan's lucky shell
haha

then it was our turn!
the c girls
we played well,
it was a game more based on service
and the six of them was on a service killing spree
so we won
(:
also thanks to shiyuan's shell

unfortunately it did not work for the c boys
anyway
they played their best
and i was super impressed by cheeguan's serves
they were amazing!
well, that is the only one time i can say that he is cool
XD
many ppl were passing shiyuan's shell around
trying to chant for good luck
and i was sitting there praying
haha
forgot to pray to god
XD
well, i prayed for forgiveness
and asked him to sprinkle blessings over all of us
that even though we won
we would be
"humble in victory, gracious in defeat"

so
went to celebrate with the team
at the macdonalds
at tea garden
it had been like ages since i went there
so saw the turtles
haha
<:

so had to rush back
damit
did not even celebrate properly

i want to go for the hiking trip but i also want to go to jiamin's and yingjie's party
how?
got to sacrifice one
so im going for the hiking trip
awww...
i really want to go for another class outing
):
well,
face up to reality
i cant have everything i want
so thats that

nothing more
got one pic to post
but lazy
ok
byes

over you

2008-08-26T04:35:00.000-07:00

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,

you said to forget you
and somehow i almost managed to get it
but you pulled me back again
this is the second time

yesterday and today

2008-08-26T03:30:00.000-07:00

ok...
finally managed to get the internet back
yesterdaywant to post cos got so many things to post about
but could not
but now i am just going to post part of it
cos i dont really feel like talking about

yesterday
had school
had pe
did the dance
near to completion
just that the class is so hard to control
but well,
then went home for tution
but cancelled
ran alot
to the bus stop
for the bus
up the hill
and all the way back into school
well,
i rushed all the way back to school
for vball training
hoping that i was going to practice enough for queenscup
and that i can be in the main six
but
well,
i wasnt chosen
damnit
went home crying
cried the whole night
cried in the moring
why
i dont understand
shouldnt i be in it
instead of rene
why
am i not better than he in vball?!
i know this may sound selfish
and all of you say that she had improved
and now i cant do anything
now i bet in queenscup
just to step into the court to play
is near impossible
cos i am reserve
and sometimes
none of the reserve plays
AT ALL
wtf
i knew that if i had not gone
i would not know this news
and you know what
he broke up with her!!
he actually broke up with her!!
why cant he just be happy and stay with her
cant he make up his mind
why am i still affected by this
is it because
i can not let go
no matter how hard i try
why
i did so much
i listened to him
did what he said
tried and do whatever he wants
and yets he want to do this
why!?
it hurt be so much
deep down inside
like how i had left a scar on jurgen's heart
now i know how it feels

sherman, are you still angry with me? i am so sorry

today
i did not want to talk to them
but had no choice
just have to let go
and play along with the game
it felt like i had left the team
it felt like they had betrayed me
and true enough
what i thought
that they would leave me out
what am i suppose to do
am i able to forget all this by monday?
cos now i am on the verge of saying that i am not going
am not going back to marymount on friday
cos no one going back
damn
i really wanted to see the whole class again
well,
forget it
friends come and go
and soon they are gone forever
even though you want them so much
is that really the meaning of true friendship
i dont believe it
why am i so guible
why do i get betrayed by everyone on this earth
cant stand it
my mom was once a loner
why cant i be one
thanks alot
used the CME period to practice the dance
left the finale
still have to do a lot of practicing
the class have to be more energic!!
hello!!!
bring us to the finals
we are the sports class
we are unique
where is the 1D spirit
well,
i forgot
i have actually been betrayed by them too
like every time i cheer
no one cheers along with me
*keep smiling* i tell myself
but behind close doors i lose myself and cry it all out
i believe that tomorrow
i would continue crying
and i want everyone to leave me alone
let me cry
i derserve it

am going to prepare my heart of losing
byes

take control

2008-08-24T00:33:00.000-07:00

i puy my hand over one side of my face
oh
too obvious
i put my hand on both sides of my face
oh
way too obvious
i put my hand in my pocket
oh
that cant do
i put my hand behind my back
what am i suppose to do!
just have to keep one eye close
no
keep both eyes closed
no
i cant do it
turn around
no
my head keeps turing back
go to the next room
no
my feet is just walking back
cant i need somewhere i can relax
i sit on my chair
figeting
i lie on my bed
still figeting
i play with my fingers
trying to continue
but i stop
continue and do something
but i keep stopping
i cant take it any longer
i walk out taking a drink
my eyes, body everything
is just fixed on them
too late
i guess it was already obvious
they saw me
i try to run
no where to go
i try to do something
nothing to do
i try to hide
but nowhere to hide
i just stand there like an idoit
looking at them
what am i suppose to do
i cant turn away
i cant run away
i cant do anything
just ignore it?
impossible for me
i have been trying
but never succeded
HELP!

but everytime i listen to the song above all
i know that there is a way
and sooner or later it would be resolved
but i am already at my wits end
how long must i continue on

today kaiwen gave me an interview
was so not prepared
then i guess the interview was terrible
he even took a video!!
well,
sorry kaiwen if it turned out bad
was too nervous
i hate videos
XD

and worse of all there were so many ppl crowding around me
damnit
haha

bored
tmr going back to school
I WANT TO GO BACK TO MARYMOUNT!!!!

byes

ABOVE ALL

2008-08-23T05:31:00.000-07:00

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

G C
Above all powers,
D G
Above all kings,
C D G
Above all nature and all created things,
D/F# Em D C G/B
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man,
Am Am/G D/F#
You were here before the world began.
G C
Above all kingdoms,
D G
Above all thrones,
C D G
Above all wonders the world has ever known.
D/F# Em D C G/B
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth,
Am Am/G B7/F#
There's no way to measure what You're worth.

G C
Crucified
D/F# G
Laid behind the stone
C
You lived to die
D/F# G
Rejected and alone
D/F# Em
Like a Rose
D C G/B
Trampled on the ground
Am7
You took the fall
G/B C D
And thought of me
G
Above all

this song really reminds me that God loves me no matter what
and i felt like i really did not deserve this kind of treatment from him
especially when we sin everyday

QUEENS CUP is COMING!!
cant wait
and friday i want to go back to mcs
hope my school ends early
killing myself
cant bring myself to talk to him
why!!!
am i not suppose to forget and carry on with life
why!!!

ok
bored already
got no dramas to watch!!!
byes

vball

2008-08-22T01:30:00.000-07:00

nothing interesting about school
other than
JIAMIN WORE BRACES!!
haha
jiamin it is not that bad
XD
well, TODAY I BROUGHT THE VBALL TO SCHOOL
FINALLY
after all that persuading
but only can bring it once a week
if i want to bring it on more days then i have to get very good results
*cross my fingers XD*

well, after school
stayed back for the dancing cos on monday i cant go so today i went
then on the way back home saw some boys going down the hill
then they saw he carrying a vball
then they shouted "jie qiu" and "volleyball!!"
haha
i guess that they are also vballers
haha
was quite funny
well, later i got tuition
gotta run
byes

feeling sad

2008-08-21T04:19:00.000-07:00

heys dian rong
you seem to be angry alot recently
and you like have been ignoring me like that
you like dont trust me anymore
what happen?
and i am sorry i told you the wrong chapter to study
but sincely
i did not know
although i got 15
does not mean i told you to learn the wrong chapter on purpose
i seriously dun know
if you dont forgive me then i am sorry
please dun ignore me

bored le
i guess i am slowly improving the relationship with SAMANTHA!! haha
for art,
wells, im giving up on it
hahahahahahahhaha
dun care le
byes

angry

2008-08-20T05:30:00.000-07:00

I...
am angry cos had the stupid spot check
am angry cos i helped her
am angry cos i did not play vball
am angry cos i can only bring the vball every friday
am angry cos i could not finish art
am angry cos i accidentally dropped sherman's phone
am angry cos ms heng was late for vball training
am angry cos we did not do much for training
am angry cos ms heng said i could play but in the end did not put me in it
am angry cos i played badly in the match
am angry cos melissa did not control her mouth
am angry cos i was so angry at melissa that i punched the wall TWICE with all my strength
am angry cos i cut my finger
am angry cos i injured me knee AGAIN!!
am angry cos dian rong was unhappy
am angry cos i wanted to make her happy and served with all my might
am angry cos she remained unhappy
am angry cos no one cheers along with me
am angry cos ms heng wants to talk to me
am angry cos i hate ms heng
am angry cos ms heng is so naggy, we say one word she says millions
am angry cos nobody cared
am angry cos we sprinted all the way
am angry cos i could not take it
am angry cos i gave up half way
am angry cos i could not go home myself to cry
am angry cos ate nothing much for dinner
am angry cos my brother does not listen
am angry cos my hair is not drying
am angry cos sherman has not accepted my apology
am angry cos he did not talk to me.
am angry cos he hates us
today is not much of a good day as you can read from the top part

KOJAK

2008-08-19T02:51:00.001-07:00

KOJAK WONG
I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR THAT CHRISTIANITY IS NOT BULLSHIT
OK!!!!
DIFFERNENT PEOPLE MAY TAKE A LONGER TIME TO FORGIVE AND FORGET
JUST HTINK OF THE MANY TIME YOU FOUGHT WITH JURGEN AND HE FORGAVE YOU!!!
YOU BETTER NOT SAY THAT IT IS BULLSHIT!!!

bored le
my life sucks
everyone says my new hair style not nice
thanks sherman for the newspapers

happy yet sad

2008-08-18T05:09:00.000-07:00

well, today was a happy yet sad
had some good laughs with friends and parents
but sad cos i felt left out.
like everyone has been telling everyone everything

she misunderstood me
he hates me
i only want to be their friend
is that wrong?
am i asking for too much
i thought we were good friends
and i only talk to him as a friend
no other reasons

hate life
ppl misunderstnading me
is it because im a flirt?!
tell me if i am
cos i dun want to be

hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life

oh weiliang
sry nv give you anything
totally forgot that it was your bdae
anyways
happy bdae!(:

tmr is si yuan's bdae i think
ok bored

hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life
hating life

byes
oh and i forgot
i cut my hair!!!
looks a bit weird but who cares
no one cares
(:

church

2008-08-17T01:18:00.000-07:00

KAIWEN NEARLY FORGOT TO PICK ME UP!!!
hahahahahahhaha
it was damn funny
but i guess he was very busy so forgot
well, next time u dun hvae to bother him le
i noe the way to church already
happy happy
thanks kaiwen anyway
XD

damn it
he is anti social and hates us
why?
i dun understand.

i am a bit confused
what is the difference between roman catholics and christians
today they talked about it during message
quite confused
can someone can give me a logical explanation
please...

bleh
TIMOTHY HENG WEN QIANG!
YOU BETTER LISTEN TO ME OR ELSE YOU ARE SO DEAD!!

two hours!!!

2008-08-15T17:16:00.000-07:00

IT HAS ONLY BEEN TWO HOURS AND HE ALREADT CREATED SO MUCH TROUBLE.
HE LOCKED THE DAMN HOUSE OUT LEAVING THE KEYS INSIDE
AND NOW CANT EVEN GO IN!!
ALL THE FOOD IS INSIDE
THEN CANT EAT
BLOODY HELL
MUST WAIT TILL TMR CAN THEN
can OPEN
THEN MY PARENTS WOULD BE BACK SO LATE
TELL ME WHERE ARE THEY GOING TO STAY!!!

he and his bloody attitude
he better watch out

tuition

2008-08-15T06:35:00.000-07:00

just ended tuition
it was just beijing olymipc
IN CHINESE!!
damn tired just now
can literally sleep
but i washed up so im going to watch my drama
tmr the adults are not in so im just going to play vball in e morning then study in e afternoon

someone...

dont blame

2008-08-14T21:49:00.000-07:00

heys guys
i finally managed to look through your blogs
on kojak's blog u wrote that is is his fault
well, it is not
i am the one that is miserable not him
so it is not his fault

kojak and samantha,
i am sorry

go home them post again
hate this lesson

volleyball

2008-08-14T05:38:00.000-07:00

damn it
i cant bring my vball to school
the vball that i bought
with my own money
that i went hungry for a few recess. more like months
and i cant even bring it to school to play!!
not even one day!!!
not fair
i sacrificed alot
for the damn ball
then i cant even use it
next year going back to novena
still cant play with it
then isnt it a waste of money
all she cares about when it gets confiscated.
damn it
forget it
im not good at persuaying.
byes

STOP!!!

2008-08-14T01:51:00.000-07:00

THIS IS THE STOP POST.
THE TIME IS UP!!

today is the day
for you to stop spamming
and for me to stop being emo

today is the day that i have to give up no matter what
and carry on with life

STOP!!!

if you carry on you would fail you paper
so stop now
dun waste your marks.

asian cilvilisation musuem

2008-08-13T03:38:00.000-07:00

broken into pieces

2008-08-12T02:23:00.000-07:00

you gave her something.
something very precious. although i dun know what it is it is still very precious.
why did she get it and not me.

i had to be strong.
i could not let you see my tears anymore.
so i did not cry.
but if anything stirked me off, i would have burst.
you had to give it to her when i was around
what was your intention!
you want the whole class to see
you want me to see and feel terrible!
if it i the 2nd one, you bloody well do it another time
how more insensitive can you be!
you know at that point, my heart broke into a million pieces, one that you cannot fix at all. nothing!
jut because i dun want my friends to worry, i dun want you to see that i am so gulible that is why i did not FREAKING cry.
you know i drew that stupid bitch in my stupid book.
you should be glad i did not poke holes in her face.
fine maybe i have been too much
but must you treat me like that!!!

forget it
i will slowly forget all about you.
just dun pull this nasty trick again!

let go

2008-08-11T04:50:00.000-07:00

everyone is telling me to let go.
telling me that it happened to them before.
telling me to give up on him.

i also really want to
but i dun want to just give up now.
the more i think about giving up, the more i am hesitant about it.

its like losing my right arm.
losing the will to write.
losing the will to set.
losing the will to spike.
losing the will to serve.
losing the will to draw.

how dreadful can it be.
i gotta be strong, but i am scared.
i keep telling myself.
he fell for this girl that just came
he fell for this girl that he hardly know of.
yet i knew so much about him but i did not manage to get into his heart.
how pathetic.

that sad face
those sad eyes
they keep ringing in my head.
once i think of them, my heart breaks into a million pieces.
regretting what i have not done.
why do i only remember that face that cant be earsed of my memory.

i know if i continue on like that i am going to lose so many things
friendship
my marks
and most of all MYSELF
yet i know i would lose all these thing i still continue on torturing myself.
why do i do this to myself
shouldnt i be the rebecca that i know
that has courage to overcome anything.
i even had the courage to overcome my father's disappareance
why cant i overcome this!!!!

all these gives me a headache, i wasted so many tears for him. why WHY!!
i am also confused by myself.

someone help me sort things out.

no one to rely on, no one to reach out a hand to me, no one to lend me a shoulder.
080808 was the day i lost the friendship, 070808 was the day you were happy, i would never forget this day.

emo

2008-08-10T23:26:00.000-07:00

still keeping my life quiet and simple.
did not go for the dancing thigy with the class
so sorry sherlene

tmr going to school
have to keep the smile on my face(:

jiayous

got early tuition!!!!!!!!!!!
hate it hate it hate it

samanntha,
good luck with you and kojak. although i hate it this way, i have to face up to reality. you better make sure he treats you well and u treat him well if not i would not forgive either both of you.

2nd year anniversary

2008-08-10T03:48:00.001-07:00

haha just realised.

it is the 2nd year anniversary for my blog!!

just look back 2 years from now
see how my life has changed

i see one thing that i have never changed.
me being alone.

i realised i had always been left out.
and even now i am still being left out
there is definitely something wrong with me.
i gotta find out
but how??
i dont have friends that are straightforward
that would tell me where i am wrong.
one of them is jurgen but how many times did he correct me?

help!!

pathetic

2008-08-10T03:25:00.000-07:00

probably if you have been reading my life eveyday.
dont you feel sian?
dont you think that i am so pathetic.
dont you think that i might as well die, get lost.

then if you feel about me that way, spam all you want on my blog
i would agree with anything you say. but this can only last for a week.
because i promised myself one week is enough.
i dont have to go all emo for so long
i may lose my friends again
so one week and thats that.
it would be time to move on and prove him wrong

did not focus much during church
going to do my repentence later.
will be going out to eat (:
bye!!

quiet

2008-08-08T22:16:00.000-07:00

damn it! the video is not allowed cos of the copyright and terms. ahhh it is original work why cant i post it. maybe next time(: these are some pics from yesterday. will be posting them over the days.

change of mind
i am not going to stand aside
i am going to prove you wrong.
i dont care
i am going to make you regret it.
i am going to find someone that loves me for who i am
i have made a promise to myself that i would not lay a finger on anyone(beating in a sense)
i would be more gentle.
i want you to regret it for your whole entire life.

kojak

2008-08-08T00:52:00.000-07:00

you stead with her yesterday!!!
now i am gonna tell the whole wide world.

I LOVE KOJAK AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN STOP ME FROM
EVEN IF HE STEAD WITH SAMANTHA,
I WILL WAIT FOR HIM.
I WONT GIVE UP SO EASILY
to some of you it may not seem suprising.

kojak,
i find it unfair
i went to great lengths to get ur attention
i had you ignore me for one whole month
and now i know you are going to ignore me again.
probably forever, i dont know.
i dont care, at least i stay by ur side watching you.
i would be there no matter what.
but now this girl comes along.
i treated her so nicely, without knowing that you actually fell for her.
i cant believe it
how can i be so stupid
then it became more obvious to me
you were getting closer and closer to her
before today you told me to let go.
i tried.
i tried forcing myself to like someone else
but then everytime i did it, i just thought of you
i am sorry i wasnt able to do that
but today, i could not help it anymore
i became to suspect that you liked her
a girl that you just knew
a girl that ou hardly know of.
compared to me
the girl who has been helping you.
how is that unfair
where is the logic!
but when it comes to love there is no logic.
so that there is no explaination that you love her.
i still remember those sad eyes
that you cried the whole day when u liked her.
i really regret not consoling you but leaving you to cry alone
cos i didnt know what to do
i really regret it
if only i could turn back time i would make an effort to console you
maybe then i could get a step closer to you.
but it is over
i had enough already
maybe going to be emo for a while
for a month
i am nothing at all

each day

2008-08-07T05:54:00.000-07:00

each day passes and i think about you
i wonder how much i know about you- hardly nothing
each day i want to know more about you
to understand you
is that impossible??
hope to see you tomorrow.

today nothing much
uest got our class tee
but tmr i would get it cos i did not stay back
i hope it is nice
cross fingers
xd
hahahahhahaha

spent the whole afternoon doing the stupid eng drama
i hope it pays off
i dont want to scream at people

today my knee hurt alot
going to school nearly fell down in front of jiaqi
hahaha
then in class fell down
but sat on my chair
stupid kendrick laughed at me
XD hahahahahha

now my knee much better
at times it feels weak
but it has to heal before queenscup
i hope it does not get worse

tmr having a big surprise
then got the national day celebration
then have to watch the olympics
then must do a chinese compo on it

ok bored le
bb

yishun secondary

2008-08-06T04:32:00.000-07:00

just got home
the whole 6th avenue jam so got home late
my brother just got canned
dun know what reason
well, now im eating spagettie
yummy(:

just now training had vball friendly match with yishun sec
sec 1 and 2
it was held at "home"
so got the advantages
it was best of 5
i think we won 4
haha
last round a bit slack
sure gonna get scolding by mr koh
cos ms heng complain to him
well, whatever
some bboys came to watch and some others
TERRY WAS REFREE!!!
haha
cant believe it
my first time
haha
well, he was very scary
XD
hahahahhahahaha

i played the 2nd 3rd and 4th round
the 2nd round you were not there so i played super badly
even my serve also cant go across
then my 3rd round you came
i made one mistake
a huge one
and u saw it
it determined me to work harder
the 4th round half way you went
i felt lousy again
but i continued to try hard
with your presence with me i feel pressurized
to impress you

well, on monday my right knee was hurt until today
so did not play well,
then during the 3rd round i hurt my left knee
ahhh
damn painful
made 2 mistakes by not receiving the ball
damn it
but i cant make my knee problem an excuse
have ot bear with it

today we made some amazing moves
((:
first was jiamin!!
the second ball no one expected her to SPIKE!!
haha
amazing
though it went out of court
but it got the opponent all surprised
second was belinda and iris!!
they were on a killing spree(:
the serve serve serve
no one picked it up
haha
well, after a while they picked it up
haha
they were awesome
third was me!!!
dian rong set for me but too near the net the i set over
the opponent expected me to spike but i set
haha
then got one point!!
happy happy

berlin went for the church commitement
but came back after a while
she also played

the rest of the team also did great
with all the cheering and stuff
i love my team
(:

dian rong and dian tian
dont worry bout me.
i will bear with the pain no matter what
haha
dian rong
sorry to make you angry
well, in the 3rd round i hurt my left knee
then i told dian tian
then when the other side was suppose to serve
she scream WAIT!!
haha
it was cos of me
then i also scream WAIT!!
to stop her from telling coach
if not i cant play
i will bear with the pain no matter what
XD

you know today i just realized
that all the boys that i like on my own account
have either medical problems
or financial problems
i dont know
why
ok
that is random

had history test
IM A GONNA FAIL IT!!

ok nothing more i guess
bb

training

2008-08-05T04:07:00.000-07:00

haha
today had some test(* they say it is an exam)
so lame lorh
slept while doing it
XD

then went for training
bought belveder(*opps dun noe how to spell cos not my house!!! I LOVE COMMONWEALTH!!)
haha
so bought the shirt then went to training wearing a SKIRT!!
so warm larh
so many ppl came
like almost all the b boys and c girls
well, of course got the c boys cos that was their training XD
KOKWENG, MUST GET WELL THEN CAN PLAY AT THE QUEENSCUP

oh talking bout queenscup,
IT IS NEXT WEEK!!!!!
ahhh
so soon!!!
i doubt i would play
so good luck to the rest
hardly had any training
how to be as good as the rest
haha

bored
tmr got match against yishun sec
also have history test
still have yet to learn
okays
got to go
bb

P.S.
if i am going to start to like you,
would you be like the rest?

sunday(:

2008-08-03T05:06:00.000-07:00

jurgen
jiamin
dylan
can ur make it on a sunday? the 31 aug
my church having an outing to the botanic gardens
and i want u guys to come
haha
i bet it would be fun!!!

ahhh
i put on weight
now 39kg
ahhh
so heavy
hahahaha

bored
watching ROLLING LOVE
love it lots

tmr got to go to sch
bb

vball

2008-08-01T22:23:00.000-07:00

just after the match cried
i really tired not to cry but i could not help it
last time after every match, i would get angry so today i decided to keep calm
so i was cheering cheering very loudly
like a bloody idoit
then when the group scored cos berlin did not say queenstown so i decided to say it
i knew that it was embarrssing enough
to be the only idoit to be shouting away
then shi yuan told me not to take berlin's line
you know how much hurt i felt
even cheering for the team is also wrong??
it is already so difficult for me to mix in
just cheering
getting all embarrassed
how much must i do to fit in
so went home crying
and bloody hell
in the match i hit the ball ONCE!!
so much for going
just a waste of my time
but i must remember
that vball is a team effort
and i cant just do it alone
so
jiayou everyone

how wonderful if the school is this quiet

jolene

jiamin

dian rong

videos taken today
enjoy!!!

bad things out of my mouth

2008-08-01T07:14:00.001-07:00

just ended tuition not too long time ago
just had to do one stupid compo and we took the whole lesson
hahah
somehow i love tuition cos there are my friends who i have in common
not like in school even though i see then everyday

well, this week tessa and darien is here
and i dread it
i was telling my mom but i guess uncle adrian over heard
then she was like so angry with me
what to do
it is the fact, the truth
he should live with it
I HATE THEM

today the sims also came down so it was like the 6 of us again
it brought back so many bad memories
just of janine, tessa and i

i also realized that the years passed so quickly

well, i am starting to get over you
just wanna thank you for the patience you had with me
taking in all my crap

tmr got friendly match with a few schools
then must go to school by 7 25
so early
still i wanna watch my drama
bb

forgetting

2008-07-31T21:20:00.001-07:00

now i am at school
ICT period
just now had mini test on literature
must write poem

well,somehow i am starting to forget you
but please when i start you dont make me like you again
please dont flare up
you made me somehow remember the sad eyes that you had
which brought me back to like you again

got someb boys numbers but i want there msn
hahahha
im greedy
yesterday weiliang sms me and julia want us to bring the know drugs bag
haha
later got tuition
still have not done all my hmwk yet
bb

friend

2008-07-31T04:52:00.000-07:00

nothing much just listening to a few songs

still in the list(:

but you know recentely,
i felt that jiamin is a bit cold towards me
and i dont know why
i feel like i had done something wrong like what i had done to jurgen
and she is upset with me
today tried talking to her but still she sort of ignores me
it is because i am a bit oudated?

all into the dush bin

2008-07-30T05:12:00.000-07:00

i wrote it, gave it but in the end i tore it.. my chance, my feelings all into the dustbin...
how long more can i wait
u tell me to give up
but i cant

love this song, the lyrics somehow encourage me to give up but another song tells me to continue

chris daughtry-over you
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

and the other one,
jesse mccartney- just so you know
i shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

today a new student came to join our class like permanent!!!
heard she is replacing min jee
MIN JEE dont gooo

well, she was in china international school
looks like an eurasian
um.. she is singaporean and her name is Samantha
well, iris was like so friendly
during assembly she just said to Samantha
"hi!! my name is Iris, what is yours"
haha
LOL

then i introduced myself
but then i started to make fun of julia
hahahahahah

i am the top performer for the standing broad jump
sadly i did not manage to get the top 5 performer for the overall
sad luh
i lost to them
congrats to BERLIN, SHERLENE and KAI ZHEN with the other i dont know people
hahah
im mean

well, im not getting the shirt already
just getting a medal
well, next yr got another chance!!

had the sports carnival
which was a waste of time
so nothing much

got to do my eng hmwk
still have not started
hahahah

okays got to do it now
bb

btw, this is a video of just now XD enjoy
it is funny

faces

2008-07-29T03:12:00.000-07:00

i got the courage to write it
i got the courage to give it to you
i got to risk the friendship between us and start again
but u just said
"continue waiting lo"
i cant freaking understand
but i gotta chill
what to do...

just gotta give me time to think about it
though i have been saying this over and over again
it is tough
even not talking to you
makes the feeling even more real

smiles to me and nobody

shen yang number 127 middle school

2008-07-28T05:06:00.000-07:00

ok... from the title u should know already
the pupils from that school and some teachers came from china to our school
they even performedm for us
apprantely they are going to be with us for all the years
cos it is some twinning programme
well, nothing much
had eng tui
missed the awesome match( which is training)
i got enough courage to write the letter but did not give it
damn it

got rene's ball confiscated by mr harry
damn him
but got enough courage to get it back
even showed him my temper
haha
was not late for class tho
damn
well, embarrassed myself infront of arnold, cheong leong and nelson i think
watever

damn life
it sucks

2008-07-27T05:58:00.000-07:00

haha
this is this yr's yf camp!!!
wanna go
this yr tim is going
i think tessa wont be coming cos she said it was lame
well, suit herself
she wont get to know alot of ppl

well, today not interesting
so not going to talk about
byes then

palawan beach

2008-07-26T03:38:00.000-07:00

today was the day!!!
the whole vball crew went except for a few
i guess
sad jiamin could not come

well, i did not take any pics cos was playing.
the match was terrible
1st one was 1 to 12
2nd one was 4 to 12
they even called us losers

the experience counts
but i was angry at the fact that they were so slow
slow in walking
slow in picking up the ball
mostly slow in everything
no offence larh
but i guess i like fast pace

the boys were funny larh
terry was acting like a 3 year old kid
playing with sand
trying to dig a whole
(i cant believe he is a referee) then almost all the girls went to help
the boys were still playing in the tournament
( they did very well!! hahahah)
so then when they were all done they all went into the sea
the girls were splashing water at them
some of them playing vball in the sea???

haha
well, i think some got to know me.
like arnold.
haha
he so mean larh
i just splash water at him
then after i change he wants to take revenge
XD
meanie

then woke up the water god(sherman) to play vball with us
haha
i felt bad after a while
cos he said he very tired
aiyoo
but he still played
then he so kiasu went into the sea with his entrance/bus card and got it all wet
he even asked me to help him dry it
haha
so im courteous enough to help him
XD

got sunburnt
so painful

well, gotta start doing my hmwk tmr
please anyone recomend me to any nice dramas
thanks

bb

tmr

2008-07-25T07:15:00.000-07:00

haha
tomorrow got the beach vball thingy
excited
but gotta wake up early
cos meeting everyone at 7 30
ahhh

well, today my mom picked me up later than usual
cos of the stupid reception
damn it
wasted so much money
XD

nothing much to post
going to clear out my pics so tmr can take more
bb

cant

2008-07-24T04:57:00.000-07:00

i cant gurantee you but i will try
i will manage to do it somehow

lazy to do my hmwk

losing friends
being too emo

dun read this post it is full of nonsense.
haha
lol

lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame
lame

crying out all my tears till there is none left

what more it meaningful in my life---

nothing

relax and stay calm

2008-07-23T05:22:00.000-07:00

relax
stay calm
and let it all go past you
forget about it
it is time to move on
though things may not turn out how you want it to be
just let it go
--------------------------------------------------------

that is a promise im making to myself
that to let it all go

-------------------------------------------------------

had vball training today
and

I CAN'T DO MY FOOT WORK PROPERLY
i must try harder
julia, ying jie
please try harder
cos the beach vball comp is coming soon
i have been practising my setting
though i needa work a little more on it

today jiamin did not come to sch
u must get better yeahs

tmr got history test
tmr then i revise
so lazy
teehees

bb

cannont see

2008-07-22T00:50:00.000-07:00

sad luh
cannot see alot of ppls blog
like
kojak, shiyuan, sherman, sherlene, samuel
bleh

sad...
finially learnt some dance steps today during cme
got i think 3 weeks left
ahhhhh
waiting for the class tees
haha

supposely it changed to black and silver
not bad
((:

well, this sat got beach vball competition
from 9 30 to 4 smthing
my 'ANTI DRUG" cap is super ugly
gonna take out all the extra stuff on it after the competition
the rest did not join
sad...
but they are going to come and support US!!!
haha
love u guys
well, after the match they would play vball but i think i would have to go home by then cos got the stupid curfew to stick to
sad...
going to try and persuade my mom
XD

tmr got HEALTH CHECK!!
i dun want
got the eye and the backbone thingy
):
then cos of it got no ART!!!
wasted my time doing it yesterday!!
):

sad...
my sad life
gotta stay happy tho it is so miserable
bb

"save me from this world"

heart broken

2008-07-20T23:53:00.000-07:00

cried all night
cried all day
how long can it continue??
i am sorry but i cant let go
maybe it would take some time for me
but still...

how was the interview
kind afelt out cos diantian, dianrong and jiamin
was going for the interview and i was not
tho i did not want to but
it shows that im the least responsible at all
kinda disappointing
well, what to do
my luck has run out

_____________________________________________________

here is a poem about anger

_____________________________________________________

Anger
Anger is when you get angry,
And never happy.
Parents, teachers, children,
All get angry .
They will resort to physical behaviour,
And all would be in danger

Parents get angry,
When their children are naughty .
If looks could kill,
The child would have withered there and then.
If their child was repulsive,
Their argument would have grew more heated and repulsive
Without an end.

Teachers get angry,
When their students fail terribly.
“Out! Now!”
His voice would become cold and hard
“I am so sorry”
They would apologise to parents profusely

Children get angry,
When they are not lucky.
Their face will turn red with anger,
When they can’t take it any longer
Because their parents are having a hangover.

If anger is so scary,
We will become more hairy,
Because we will become unhappy.
So let it all go,
And be happy because...
Anger will take over you and control you.

________________________________________________

i dont see the purpose of living anymore if i am invinsible to the world

pain

2008-07-20T03:35:00.000-07:00

ahhh
everywhere on my body is pain
even inside
i got blisters on my feet
i got a terrible back ache
my hand is in pain
and my heart is the worst

problematic child
why am i that
in marymount i was the one who stood out
how much to they want of me
i bet in queenstown secondary
there will be another round of it
thanks alot
i appreciate it alot
im lonely
my school grades suck
i cant cope with life anymore

giving up

2008-07-19T02:18:00.000-07:00

that was my last time i shed a tear for you.. not again will i suffer the pain like now

it is over
im giving up
thats that

vent all my anger on my brother
im so sorry

played vball today
jump and spike
sometimes i get the timing correct
just need to let the ball spin faster
haha
one more week till the beach vball game
XD

train train train
monday i want to practice my gymnastics
but jurgen,

i am so sorry
please forgive me
i did not know that i made your phone get confiscated
i am so sorry
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

like my brother said
i am really a loner
and it made me realise
what have i been doing wrong
to agrivate someone
maybe it is because of my words that i use
maybe it is because of my actions

i definitely need to change
i gotta move on
just pray to the lord to help

im such a failure

tuition

2008-07-18T01:56:00.000-07:00

AHHH
later i got tuition)):
sad
havent learnt the compo
XD
gonna copy
well, today stayed back to practice the vball
but in the end everyone came
so still not too sure bout the arrangement
ying jie- receiver
julia- spiker
and me - setter

ahhh
dont know if i would work
but i am just going there to have fun
so who cares
XD
haha

well, got a new blog
thanks to ICT

gotta go
bb

vball

2008-07-17T01:12:00.000-07:00

hey guys
come support me for my vball match!!!
it is on the 26 july(sat)
at sentosa palawan beach next to dolphin lagoon
it should start around 9am
((:
ask me if u want the map

happy happy
someone see my blog
tmr going to stay back to decide who is the spiker, receiver and setter
XD
i want to be receiver
FREE BALL!!

haha
jurgen mad at me
cos yesterday i had his phone confiscated
IM SO SORRY
i did not mean it

i dont know why
but everyday i must make someone angry
anyway
KOJAK,
im trying really hard
forgive me

today not very interesting
played high ball during recess
still got lots of hmwk to do
esp chinese tuition
going to bring it to school to do
):

SOMEONE HELP ME WITH MY ENGLISH!!
so damn difficult
long time nv talk to kaiwen and daniel

im not sociable
i think there is something wrong with me
oh

JIAMIN DAMN SWAY
today she was the cookie winner
XD

gtg bb

"lonely me"
"give me a locket and i would treasure it, give me a chance and i would treasure it forever"
i wont forget how painful it was

work

2008-07-16T05:04:00.001-07:00

more work and more and more
just had a pile of homework to do
and i have vball training today!!

ahhh
now doing it
well, everyone very moody today during vball
but in between we pulled up our pants acting like our teachers

MS HENG CAN CARTWHEEL!!
not bad not bad
((:

im parnering OM for the ACESDAY THINGY
ahhh
fortunately not with marcus
XD

PS: I CANT DANCE FOR NUTS!!

yes

2008-07-15T01:54:00.000-07:00

haha
happy happy me
yes yes yes

that is my reply to jurgen

well, stayed back to do dnt hmwk
then slack
went home early cos was bored

lets start from before assembly
THE DIAN'S BALL WAS CONFISCATED BY MR SINGH!
sucks larh
then in the end during recess played high ball with minjee they all
quite fun

then MDM THAM CONFISCATED ZILIA'S BALL!
no idea what happened but when she was gone for a minute
melissa sprayed decoderent all over the com
haha

hungry
XD
was thinking in the bus
how nice it was if i still had my flexibility.
gotta train now
cos i think im performing for the ACES day
haha
i wanna see jurgen do his handstand

tmr copy hmwk
bb

vball

2008-07-13T00:41:00.000-07:00

just a boring sunday
but i got a VBALL!!
the long wait is worth it
and it only cos $17
damn cheap
well, gotta study
bb

at my mids end

2008-07-12T06:37:00.000-07:00

i dont know what happened to you
jurgen said you changed
yenyi said you changed
i really wanna talk to you
to help you
i want to help patch back ur relation with yenyi
your can talk things out
i really wanna help
maybe by helping you
just small things
can let you relax a bit
i dont mind
i will help no matter what
but you have to give me that chance

shou suan

2008-07-12T03:35:00.000-07:00

my hands are so tired
have been doing art hmwk the whole day since the moring
also help Kojak do his so it is like 20 pictures
finally finished
have not started on my hmwk yet):
tmr i must do
haha
now gonna cycle with my brother
he FORCED ME!!

oh yarh
HAPPY BIRHTDAY MINJEE!!
will miss you when you are gone
must have loads of fun now yeah

and...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAI WEN!!
you are a cool guy to hang out with
tho we dont have much in common((:
love you pictures
XD

thats it
gotta go
bb